Work and work and work again! Ok let's break our head today by doing self-assessment, don’t worry this one is formative it wont be carry anywhere. Ok, my first job as programmer was a great moment for me to expand my knowledge and my skills. Until today I consider my self as a person who like to know about new things. It's not to say that I'm a scientist but I just like to explore more knowledge. Ok back to the main topic, I'm keep asking myself everyday when I come to work everyday, what actually I have done, and is it improve my skill enough, what will be happen for the next 5 years if I keep doing this, what is the next task for me. Ok sorry for asking too much, but I always asking that for myself, and sometimes I just ignore those kind of question.
Ask yourself, and then we will drill our skill, that’s what my foster brother said. Because sometimes when I doing my work I said to myself “ini org yang tak tau IT pon boleh buat”. So what the hell is they need IT people to do this (because they want to give you money, you jerk!). Please, I’m not only capable of doing data extraction and updating others, hey I’m a programmer! I can do that ----this what I feel like to say to my boss. My work place its not a good place to learn programming, but if you want to know a little bit about account and insurance, yes! After a few months in this new company I feel that I’m not gaining my programming skill but a got knowledge in insurance accounting, OK that not so bad. But situation in this company just make me feel “boring, empty”. I feel like a call center person, because everyday there will be call from user, saying that they cannot do this and that. And then I will forward this issue to the vendor and they solve it. People say Programmer from India is good, talented, and cheap, hey boss!! please don’t forgot your own people in Malaysia, they capable too (This another problem we’ll talk about it later).
So, the moment I joint this company, I already not doing any programming, I lost my touch. Now this humble programmer doing a job like “mandur”. OK how about yours? You must be learning a lot of new things. If I stay here for another 5 years I hope I can be IT manager….hahhahah….this must be, because here I don’t even have to know the code, except if those vendor runaway. I currently try to push my self learn about another thing, maybe management, do we have to learn how to manage? If not management then I have to continue learn programming, mobile , games, application…whatever as long I have something to prepare for future. Until today I don’t know how much have I learned in this company.
They said, if we keep doing the same thing for a long time we would master it. Is it true? All I feel is boring. I’m just preparing myself, with all of this question inside my mind. Because I’m afraid if one day if I want to look for another jobs it will be harder than a fresh graduate looking for job. And looking for a new knowledge sometimes will help us in our carrier. Ok that it, lets take a part time class…..hehhehehehe.
* I want to improve my English, it seems my English not going anywhere for a long time.
* Nanti kalau aku dah terer baru buleh jadi boss. Hehehhehe.....bos!bos kuruss!!!!(remember this?).
Friday, July 29, 2005
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Playing Computer Games.
I did'nt know how to start actually. But this kind of issue have a big impact on almost everyone who know to play computer games. How long actually we spend our times on this things. Hmmm...for me I will play until I win, this only apply for a certain type of game, such as arcade. For when I was in university I dare not to go for lunch just because to play games. And it happen also to a few of the people. It seems have become a habit after I come back from my class I will go straight to my PC and play game. I even spent a long time just to renew my record on minesweeper.
Although we know playing games is wasting a lot of time, we just ignore it. And for me when I was in a first semester in University, i don't have a computer. So I using computer at lab want to do assignment, back to my hostel I saw my friend playing games on his PC, and I be the supporter behind him. Although it was not my first time playing games, but it have become another interest on me. My first playing games is when I was around 5-7 years old, I was in Pekan Merbok,Kedah on that time. My father bring me to "kedai game", it was an arcade game, my uncle give me a chance to play, although only afew times I already love it. But it was after 6-8 years later a start to play arcade game. I spend a lot of money at arcade, me and my best friend will go to one of this shop and play arcade games until we all broke.HAHHAHAHAH.....we call this activity as menabung", I don't know what the hell is we tabung for. But for sure the tokey welcome us with a big smile.
I also has experienced being caught by Police due to enter into video game(under age), they sent us to our HeadMaster. It is strange because my father didn't angry at me. After that cases I stop for a while, but still go to video game.On that time also to play one game cost me 20 cent. Usually we spare RM2 for every visit. Hahahhah...I still remember, I like to play SnowBros , BloodBrother(Not sure exact name) and Kickoff. Street Fighter not in my favourate because I don't know how to make power.
When I was in University PC Game has taken place in m heart, I use my friends PC, Pentium 166Mhz can be consider as a good PC, and playing DarkReign. Hahahahh...it is fun, I spare my whole night playing that game on my first semester. I even ask my friend to "tapau" for me, I didn't go for dinner, dinner consider as wasting time, crazy. But 1st year not yet so crazy, second year almost all of my batch have to stay outside the campus, so we rent a house at Taman Teratai, I bought my first computer, pentium 11 266 maaaa....MMX...AGP...8MB graphic card, here I start my hobbies, playing PC Games. I went to Holiday Plaza and buy a lot of games, I spend most of my time playing video game, I don't even dare to look at my notes, and on that semester I got a bad result. Luckily I'm still student(nasib baik tak kena kick), my result below 2.0....... hahahahahha.
After that shock, I start to control my hobbies, but the rate still can be consider as high, 5 hours a day menghadap PC. I try every type of game, and some of it even play it on network. Hmmmmm....I guess my habit of playing video game still can be seen until today. My wife said "awat nak makan menatang tuh
ka!!!"....and I, hehehehehe. But my wife always will come to me when I play games,
and critic on my style of playing, and even try to change strategy for me, and even
try to down me. Here are some of word from my wife:
"Hai tak menang2 lagi ka"
"Awat kuda tuh jln atas kebun sayuq, habih la kebun org kg"(this when I play Age of
Empire)
"Tak mau makan????"
"Nak makan game tu????"
"Tak lawa la susunan nih""Bagi la saya try pulak"
"Bila nak buat game sendiri"(Yg nih bisa!!!!)
"Dari tak ada anak sampai ada anak game sendiri tak siap2"(Aduh tajam menikam)
Now I'm a busy man, but sometimes curi2 gak main game. But I don't how others handle
this habit. But for me the desire is still there, only the time is not enough. I had
to share it with a lot of people now. When I was university I even setup our home network just to play games. Then every body inside that home wake up late. Morning feels like night and night feel like afternoon. I dont know I can be a programmer although I dont have a good result and playing game so much while in university. Today there a lot of game, but my computer already absolete(dah tua).
* Skrg masih nak main game, masa!masa!masa! tak mengizinkan.
Although we know playing games is wasting a lot of time, we just ignore it. And for me when I was in a first semester in University, i don't have a computer. So I using computer at lab want to do assignment, back to my hostel I saw my friend playing games on his PC, and I be the supporter behind him. Although it was not my first time playing games, but it have become another interest on me. My first playing games is when I was around 5-7 years old, I was in Pekan Merbok,Kedah on that time. My father bring me to "kedai game", it was an arcade game, my uncle give me a chance to play, although only afew times I already love it. But it was after 6-8 years later a start to play arcade game. I spend a lot of money at arcade, me and my best friend will go to one of this shop and play arcade games until we all broke.HAHHAHAHAH.....we call this activity as menabung", I don't know what the hell is we tabung for. But for sure the tokey welcome us with a big smile.
I also has experienced being caught by Police due to enter into video game(under age), they sent us to our HeadMaster. It is strange because my father didn't angry at me. After that cases I stop for a while, but still go to video game.On that time also to play one game cost me 20 cent. Usually we spare RM2 for every visit. Hahahhah...I still remember, I like to play SnowBros , BloodBrother(Not sure exact name) and Kickoff. Street Fighter not in my favourate because I don't know how to make power.
When I was in University PC Game has taken place in m heart, I use my friends PC, Pentium 166Mhz can be consider as a good PC, and playing DarkReign. Hahahahh...it is fun, I spare my whole night playing that game on my first semester. I even ask my friend to "tapau" for me, I didn't go for dinner, dinner consider as wasting time, crazy. But 1st year not yet so crazy, second year almost all of my batch have to stay outside the campus, so we rent a house at Taman Teratai, I bought my first computer, pentium 11 266 maaaa....MMX...AGP...8MB graphic card, here I start my hobbies, playing PC Games. I went to Holiday Plaza and buy a lot of games, I spend most of my time playing video game, I don't even dare to look at my notes, and on that semester I got a bad result. Luckily I'm still student(nasib baik tak kena kick), my result below 2.0....... hahahahahha.
After that shock, I start to control my hobbies, but the rate still can be consider as high, 5 hours a day menghadap PC. I try every type of game, and some of it even play it on network. Hmmmmm....I guess my habit of playing video game still can be seen until today. My wife said "awat nak makan menatang tuh
ka!!!"....and I, hehehehehe. But my wife always will come to me when I play games,
and critic on my style of playing, and even try to change strategy for me, and even
try to down me. Here are some of word from my wife:
"Hai tak menang2 lagi ka"
"Awat kuda tuh jln atas kebun sayuq, habih la kebun org kg"(this when I play Age of
Empire)
"Tak mau makan????"
"Nak makan game tu????"
"Tak lawa la susunan nih""Bagi la saya try pulak"
"Bila nak buat game sendiri"(Yg nih bisa!!!!)
"Dari tak ada anak sampai ada anak game sendiri tak siap2"(Aduh tajam menikam)
Now I'm a busy man, but sometimes curi2 gak main game. But I don't how others handle
this habit. But for me the desire is still there, only the time is not enough. I had
to share it with a lot of people now. When I was university I even setup our home network just to play games. Then every body inside that home wake up late. Morning feels like night and night feel like afternoon. I dont know I can be a programmer although I dont have a good result and playing game so much while in university. Today there a lot of game, but my computer already absolete(dah tua).
* Skrg masih nak main game, masa!masa!masa! tak mengizinkan.
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Is It Me or My Farther Has A Better Life
When I was young(in primary school) I read a story book about a clever boy, came from poor family. His family is very poor, they cannot afford to have a good home, wear a worn shirt, eat only rice and ikan masin. His father only a farmer, or rubber-tapper enough to get a couple of ringgit to buy food. But this boy have a dream to change all of that, and want his family life to be better. And inside this story there is a teacher who is always support this boy to study hard cause he is resposible towards his job, after he study so hard, this boy succeed and go to the University. After a couple of year in University, he came back to his family with a Bachelor Degree. Then he got a job at town, big salary, buy a big house for his family, and live happily. The end.
That is the story that I have read, what I have experienced, I enter University, come out and there is so hard to find a job. Luckily there is a contract job for me and I took it(it is a desperate time). Ok go back to the topic what I want to elaborate is, have I succeed in finding a better life? Well my father is a rubber-tapper when he was on the same age of me now. How he feed us and took us to school? My father work from 7.00 am until 1.00 pm. And then come-back home and meet us. Todays I work from 8.30 am until 5.30 pm, and go home to meet my wife and son. Here is a big different my father have 4 hours and 30 minutes to spend with us, but today I spend.....mmmm...you think about it. And at night I learned Quran from my father, me at night I already exausted, and just thinking about taking asleep. That was about job, how about stress? My father sometimes "susah hati jugak" but he has a lot of free time to think how to improve. Me free time only came on weekends(stupid! they pay us to spend our life for their life, but that's it "makan gaji"). My father(Kalau hujan tak boleh menoreh, cuti, duit pon kurang). Me(hujan ka, ribut ka, mai jugak nak kerja kalau tak kena buang).
And then come about property and car, or some other luxuries. Felda give My father land and house (thanks Tun Abdul Razak), still have some debt on it. my father only have honda c70 a.k.a kapchai, simpanan ada sesikit. Me, I dont have any property(rumah pon sewa) and have a honda car that I'm proudly have to pay monthly RM600(nak sgt kereta best). Dulu kalau kitaorang nak pi mana-mana kena sewa kereta, sebelum tuh naik motor balik kampung. Kami pernah naik satu motor 4 orang, ok la sebab aku ngan adik aku ja, lagipon kecik masa tuh. Kalau balik kg masa hujan kena berenti kat memana sebab takut kena hujan(Aku pernah tertidoq atas motor, nasib baik tak jatuh). Lepas tuh ayah aku ada la jugak buat kerja sampingan, pernah try jadi kontraktor, satu projek ja berjaya yg lain tak ada rezeki.Lepas tuh ayah aku jadi driver van kilang. Lepas tu mak aku pon kerja jugak la sebab duit tak cukup, ahli bertambah, pendapatan tak seberapa. While me today I bring my family anywhere with car, and petrol always a barrier for us to move further. OK i guess I can win if I compare this situation with my father, because on this age I already have a car but lost alot of quality time dan takde rumah sendiri.
Today my father age is already around 53. And his work very simple, everyday he wake up 6.00 am, take a bath go for pray, 6.30a.m open his small gas station, then have a visit to Pusat Mengumpul Getah check all the record over there. 1.30 pm come home for lunch, take a sleep as well, 3.00 p.m go again to gas station. Nobody dare to giving a lecture to my father he is the boss, me(of course my boss will kick my ass), and ask me to keep update on my work, makan gaji. Everyday 5 days a week, 8 till 6, I will be away from family. Hafezh, you're right, we work like mad for this one way of finding rezeki and left other 9 sources to other people. So here is the comparison between me and my father:
My father dont have a boss, I have boss (paham2 la akalau dah ada boss tuh)
My father surely no retrenchment, me already got a retrenchment letter.
My father have business to handle, and I have people problem to handle.
My father have grossly 24 hours for his own time(Takdak sapa nak marah),My time 8.30 till 5.30 belong to somebody else.
My father if want to go anywhere, just ask his son to take care the shop, me ambik cuti la lagi.
My father sambil sembang boleh buat kerja, me (try la tengok kalau nak mampus)
My father salary(tak banyak, tapi cukup untuk bagi kat semua anak2), me (cukup2 bagi kat nursery, bayaq kereta and other bills)My father have another plan expand business, my plan is looking for anther job.
My father anytime can go to school to se his children, me only if I can get permission from boss.
My father is an employer, me is employeeMy father is org felda(fresh air), me everyday sedut habuk.
My father kg mana ada jam, me traffic jam can be feel inside my flats.
My father house can fit my flat on it.
(They say if you stay in the city you can get good education(org pekan pandai2), for me bad situation)
My father kalau tak dak air mandi sungai, aku tak mandi langsung.
Actually there is a lot more that I want to compare, its enough, I dont want to loose more. Compare to education of course a have a better degree than my father,but compare with job I guess this one I have to educate myself more. This comparison cannot be use to other parties, because this comparison only made by me and suited my situation, if there is other poeple has same situation it must be kebetulan.
I think I got the conclusion here, and moral too, because I have been thinking about this since I was in University until today. What's the big deal about being a graduate? Yeah! there is a big deal, and we have to change it. Conclusion here my father won it 10-0, its me who have lost and prepare to change one day. We lost a lot of our precious time working from 8.30 till 5.30 a day, and that's it we have to, kalau tak, nak makan apa, but we can try to change it, you may think about it.I'm afraid one day I couldnt take care my son very well, becuse i'm to busy with work. Moral is although we have education/knowledge but we did'nt use it correctly, we have to "makan gaji", kalau betul2 maybe can be Bill Gates, and as I remember my teacher has never told me that "makan gaji" is hurt, org bawah la teruk. This conclusion and moral is only suite for me. OK let's get back to work again.
* Bila la aku nak kerja sendiri,sebenarnya aku takut nak start business sendiri walaupon ader peluang.Yerlah dah biasa tiap2 bulan org kasi duit. Hafezh jom jual nasi lemak!
*8.30-5.30 everyday, I was a slave. Biler la nak merdeka sepenuhnya.
That is the story that I have read, what I have experienced, I enter University, come out and there is so hard to find a job. Luckily there is a contract job for me and I took it(it is a desperate time). Ok go back to the topic what I want to elaborate is, have I succeed in finding a better life? Well my father is a rubber-tapper when he was on the same age of me now. How he feed us and took us to school? My father work from 7.00 am until 1.00 pm. And then come-back home and meet us. Todays I work from 8.30 am until 5.30 pm, and go home to meet my wife and son. Here is a big different my father have 4 hours and 30 minutes to spend with us, but today I spend.....mmmm...you think about it. And at night I learned Quran from my father, me at night I already exausted, and just thinking about taking asleep. That was about job, how about stress? My father sometimes "susah hati jugak" but he has a lot of free time to think how to improve. Me free time only came on weekends(stupid! they pay us to spend our life for their life, but that's it "makan gaji"). My father(Kalau hujan tak boleh menoreh, cuti, duit pon kurang). Me(hujan ka, ribut ka, mai jugak nak kerja kalau tak kena buang).
And then come about property and car, or some other luxuries. Felda give My father land and house (thanks Tun Abdul Razak), still have some debt on it. my father only have honda c70 a.k.a kapchai, simpanan ada sesikit. Me, I dont have any property(rumah pon sewa) and have a honda car that I'm proudly have to pay monthly RM600(nak sgt kereta best). Dulu kalau kitaorang nak pi mana-mana kena sewa kereta, sebelum tuh naik motor balik kampung. Kami pernah naik satu motor 4 orang, ok la sebab aku ngan adik aku ja, lagipon kecik masa tuh. Kalau balik kg masa hujan kena berenti kat memana sebab takut kena hujan(Aku pernah tertidoq atas motor, nasib baik tak jatuh). Lepas tuh ayah aku ada la jugak buat kerja sampingan, pernah try jadi kontraktor, satu projek ja berjaya yg lain tak ada rezeki.Lepas tuh ayah aku jadi driver van kilang. Lepas tu mak aku pon kerja jugak la sebab duit tak cukup, ahli bertambah, pendapatan tak seberapa. While me today I bring my family anywhere with car, and petrol always a barrier for us to move further. OK i guess I can win if I compare this situation with my father, because on this age I already have a car but lost alot of quality time dan takde rumah sendiri.
Today my father age is already around 53. And his work very simple, everyday he wake up 6.00 am, take a bath go for pray, 6.30a.m open his small gas station, then have a visit to Pusat Mengumpul Getah check all the record over there. 1.30 pm come home for lunch, take a sleep as well, 3.00 p.m go again to gas station. Nobody dare to giving a lecture to my father he is the boss, me(of course my boss will kick my ass), and ask me to keep update on my work, makan gaji. Everyday 5 days a week, 8 till 6, I will be away from family. Hafezh, you're right, we work like mad for this one way of finding rezeki and left other 9 sources to other people. So here is the comparison between me and my father:
My father dont have a boss, I have boss (paham2 la akalau dah ada boss tuh)
My father surely no retrenchment, me already got a retrenchment letter.
My father have business to handle, and I have people problem to handle.
My father have grossly 24 hours for his own time(Takdak sapa nak marah),My time 8.30 till 5.30 belong to somebody else.
My father if want to go anywhere, just ask his son to take care the shop, me ambik cuti la lagi.
My father sambil sembang boleh buat kerja, me (try la tengok kalau nak mampus)
My father salary(tak banyak, tapi cukup untuk bagi kat semua anak2), me (cukup2 bagi kat nursery, bayaq kereta and other bills)My father have another plan expand business, my plan is looking for anther job.
My father anytime can go to school to se his children, me only if I can get permission from boss.
My father is an employer, me is employeeMy father is org felda(fresh air), me everyday sedut habuk.
My father kg mana ada jam, me traffic jam can be feel inside my flats.
My father house can fit my flat on it.
(They say if you stay in the city you can get good education(org pekan pandai2), for me bad situation)
My father kalau tak dak air mandi sungai, aku tak mandi langsung.
Actually there is a lot more that I want to compare, its enough, I dont want to loose more. Compare to education of course a have a better degree than my father,but compare with job I guess this one I have to educate myself more. This comparison cannot be use to other parties, because this comparison only made by me and suited my situation, if there is other poeple has same situation it must be kebetulan.
I think I got the conclusion here, and moral too, because I have been thinking about this since I was in University until today. What's the big deal about being a graduate? Yeah! there is a big deal, and we have to change it. Conclusion here my father won it 10-0, its me who have lost and prepare to change one day. We lost a lot of our precious time working from 8.30 till 5.30 a day, and that's it we have to, kalau tak, nak makan apa, but we can try to change it, you may think about it.I'm afraid one day I couldnt take care my son very well, becuse i'm to busy with work. Moral is although we have education/knowledge but we did'nt use it correctly, we have to "makan gaji", kalau betul2 maybe can be Bill Gates, and as I remember my teacher has never told me that "makan gaji" is hurt, org bawah la teruk. This conclusion and moral is only suite for me. OK let's get back to work again.
* Bila la aku nak kerja sendiri,sebenarnya aku takut nak start business sendiri walaupon ader peluang.Yerlah dah biasa tiap2 bulan org kasi duit. Hafezh jom jual nasi lemak!
*8.30-5.30 everyday, I was a slave. Biler la nak merdeka sepenuhnya.
Monday, July 25, 2005
Welcome
Aku pon nak tulis gak sebab tunggu, korang punya blog update kekadang tuh lambat. Hehehe...guess what, actually i'm in a boring situation. Bukan apa aku pon nak jugak sharekan aku punya pandangan ngan org lain. Tunggu Pizli punya blog tak update, Hafezh punya pon kekadang lama gak so aku kasi aku punya la plak. Punyer lah lama aku nak menggodeh bendalah nih padahal aku amik IT. Nanti korang bacalah plak blog aku.
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